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Unconditional Love - Tokyo-san’s Thoughts

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This is the last installment of the series from Previous I've gone a long way from talking about my dream. In fact, I've never told anyone about this dream until I asked her about it. I couldn't really talk about this kind of strange stuff at that time. It's only recently that people have started to talk about such things like seeing auras and the higher self ect... It was a time when the word "relaxation" was used more than "healing". So, I didn't know what it was, and I sealed it up.When I had strainge things... so I got an massage back by email. I was in the Maldives at the time and I woke up in the morning and there was massage in my inbox. I start reading while on the way to work in the boat... ******** About Tokyo san's feelings At first sight, I fell in love with you, beautiful person, transparent person. I like the atmosphere of Mari. I wanted to know you better, I wanted to get closer. I want to talk a lot a

Love Lessons - Different Soul Mates

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Continued from last post. This is a bit of a digression after the mysterious dream. It's going to be a long story again. When I connected with my mate after a long time in 2007 I was about to say goodbye to my partner of 10 years. We met in Japan, travelled together for long periods of time and travelled to many countries together. We had actually broken up once before, a few years ago, around 2003. It was when we were living on a small island in Honduras. He told me he had found someone else he liked and started dating him. I was very sad and I had no one to talk to. I was going through it by myself. Then one day, a man suddenly appeared in the dive shop where I work. You were in Belize about a month ago, weren't you? I was on the same ferry as you. He told me. He seemed to remember where I was sitting. Sure enough, I went. I had to leave the country once because my visa was expiring. It was a particularly depressing time for me and I was down and out on the bo

Lesson in unconditional love

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Hi there, I’m Mari... This is a continuation from last post... ... after ten years of tumultuous love, The next encounter came.   If I had to learn to speak one more language... Well, maybe German? I thought it would be lovely, then it turned out to be true. And he's much younger than me,,, Some how always... "Don't worry." After 3 years of dating, we had to part ways. My first long stay in Europe I have enjoyed my life in Germany I learned about the complicated ot the complex family life of Europeans and the values and customs that are very different from those in Japan. After traveling and visiting friends in Europe. I went back to Maldives. I started to feel something from my heart. Something very loving. I don't mean who, It's not about anyone, it's about everything, it's a feeling that comes from my heart. After working for a year or so I suddenly thought Let's go to India! Finish my contract and fle to India. I spent 5 m

A Lesson in Love - Soul Mates

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This is a continuation from last post, but the story is a bit different this one. At that time I had been dancing for more than 5 years, sometimes choreographing for recitals, sometimes taking beginner lessons, sometimes taking classes for hildren's. But in the beginning of 1991 I went to New York to take danve lessons. Afrer I back from Ny, I felt like I had done it all... No, maybe even before that, but after I came back I felt that I had lost my way. I'm not sure if I want to continue in Akita or not. I felt that there was a limit to what I could do in Akita. I wanted to do something else. So I decided to quit dance and I started learn flower arrangement. I've always loved flowers. I knew so many names of flowers... I quit my part-time job at a hotel and I started to work in a flower shop. At that time I made a friend who really get along with. I was in a relationship with someone at the time, and my friend also had a girlfriend. But beyond the b

A Lesson in Love - A Mysterious Dream

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Continued from last post. Tokyo-san left this world suddenly for unknown reasons. Tokyo-san asked to my friend every day for a week traight, in his dream. "Did you tell her? " And I guess this will keep coming up in my dreams until I tell you. He thought. Mr. Tokyo-san, that's his nickname and I couldn't even remember his real name. All I knew was that he came from a rich family and that he had some strange experiences. In fact, I didn't know his voice or his way of speaking... But I was still thinking about Tokyo san. That night, I had a dream. I was walking alone in a forest (at first I thought it was in a big building with a high ceiling, but it was in a dome?) I was walking along a path with a spiral curve. in a slightly dimly lit area with thick trees. I saw a big white truck parked a little distance away, which didn't look like it belonged there. There was a man in the driver's seat of the truck. He was looking straight ahead an

A lesson in love - the guy we called Tokyo San

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It was for my own emotional release and I hope this will helps someone else too... It was more than 25 years ago. I was living in Akita City At that time I was hunging out with a groupe from outside the akita studied the university in Akita. And they often talked about a guy who was one year older than them. He was from Tokyo. SO with these groupe he called "Tokyo-san". But I'd never had the chance to meet him in person. Then, when I was working in a hotel's restaurant, my friends bloght tokyo san. My friend: indicating the person sitting next to him. "This is Mr. Tokyo. Me: "Ah! Hello, nice to meet you. Mr. Tokyo: He smiled at me in a fresh way and bailed lightly. I think he might have said "Oh, hi" in a small voice. After that, I took the order and back to work as usual. If they sit on the counter might had chance to chatting with them. But It was not enought space, and left the restaurant at the end of the lunch hour. After

A lesson in love — Unconditional Love

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That past year has been a time of growth for me in many ways. I was not so much near the ocean... A lot of feelings have come and gone. In the first place, this blog(my japanese page : marikagaya.com) is about a journey. For a long time it was mainly wrote about what happened in underwater. But As I've been traveling so many diffrent places and meet people, see the diffrent cultuer. times have changed, and My sense of values and common sense have changed. there is diffrent between Japanese values and other countries i lived and sometimes i felt big gap between them. But we are still evolving. We are on our way. Recently, I often hear the words "twin flame" and "twin ray". I think it started from the word "soulmate" or "twin soul I have had many encounters, and I have experienced a lot of hurt and joy. I think all of them were lessons for me to learn love. Before I was born, I promised myself that I would do this and that. or W

Wake up call ~ Awareness alarm

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At this moment,,, Love from holy motherhood to you. This is an alarm for information. *********** Let's be conscious how to use your own"heart" right now. Are you using energy outwards? Such as "blame for other" or "care how is other people" etc... Or using energy directed inside with a warm heart? For own awareness, For own awakening, Depends where to use energy, turn in or look outside, rising energy will change. The reality of protection will be completely diffrent. If this moment, you are not happy... This is an alarm that tell the direction change to turn into warm heart. If your heart is tingling, the way you use your heat is different. In any situation No matter how hard you feel in reality, for any heart pain There is always a meaning of warm love. The situation you have,  isn't that trying to make something aware? Does that shows thing's you

Missing Ocean and Humpback Whale in Tonga

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Missing ocean at the moment, I need physio to recover my shoulder... So I just posting this video where I was in Tonga 2015. I went Happai, and Eua. Such a magical moment,,, swimming with them more that 1.5 hours non stop!!